#When I was...(Hashtag on twitter)

#When I was a baby - my Uncle sexually abused me.
#When I was six -  my mothers boyfriend sexually abused me for two years.
#When I was seven - Older boys would sexually assault me in the communal sheds.
#When I was eight - A disabled older boy would pin me against a wall and sexually assault me.
#When I was eleven - A boy at school, punched me hard in my breast. When I told a teacher, she tutted and said 'boys'
#When I was twelve - A man on the street punched me hard in my developing
breast. I flew down an embankment, couldn't breathe and vomited. He stood
there smiling before he left.
#When I was thirteen - My older brother fondled my breasts.
 #When I was thirteen - The 27 yr old boyfriend of my friends sister pretended he wanted to help dry my washed hair. He was sat in a chair and whilst rubbing my hair with a towel, he forced my face down onto his erect penis.
#When I was thirteen - A 23 yr old man had sex with me whilst I 'Froze' He asked me if I was a virgin. I said that I didn't know. His 18 yr old brother also pinned me down on a bed and forced 15 'Love bites' on my neck before letting me go.
 #When I was fourteen - My friends mom would ask her 17 yr old son to walk me to my home, as she feared for my safety. He would sexually assault me every-time.
#When I was fourteen - My art teacher kept asking me to meet after school. One afternoon he cornered me in the classroom and sexually assaulted me.
#When I was sixteen, I was duped and trafficked by a gang who forced me into pornography and prostitution.
#When I was twenty, I attended a mental health work placement centre. The doctor who saw me there, closed the blinds, lifted my top and bra up and fondled my breasts. Also, my main tutor offered me a lift in his car. He told me that he was 'Lonely' and forced a kiss on my lips.
#When I was twenty two - I went to the doctors about my depression. The doctor put his hand on my thigh and asked if he would like me to have him come see me at my flat.
#I have been sexually harassed throughout the years, in public, on public transport and at work places..Far too many to state on here. 
 

Violent pornography normalises and incites sexually motivated murders.

 

Georgia Williams (17)

Jamie Reynolds was another sexually sadistic serial killer in the making, who was obsessed and excited by extreme, violent pornography. The problem here- Like these similar cases Ted Bundy, Vincent Tabak,  Maury Travis,  Nathan Matthews,   John Maden (To name but a few)  The initial excitement that fuelled their fantasies via sexually violent pornography - Diminishes to such an extent, that they are left utterly disappointed and are no longer able to perform, reach sexual fulfilment and climax. They have exhausted and exceeded every nasty, sadistic aspect of hurting, degrading, humiliating and killing women via images and videos, that they become both psychologically and sexually flaccid. Because it is their 'Fantasies' that drives the most prominent aspect of their lives, the sexual psychopath cannot exist without feeling power and control and this he can only achieve by eroticising sadistic sexual acts before, during or after killing a female victim. All this cannot just end or go away. It is who they are. It is inherent. So the only option for them, is to take the next step. The next level; In order to feel power, control and sexual arousal again. Unfortunately, that next step is to fantasise, plan and execute a real murder of a real woman.

Georgia Williams murder fulfilled killer's sadistic fantasy

Georgia Williams and Jamie Reynolds

 Sex-Related Homicide and Death Investigation

David Parker Ray

 David Parker Ray Also known as the 'Toy box killer' As a teenager, his sexual fantasies of raping, torturing, and even murdering women developed. Also,around this time, his sister discovered Ray's sadomasochistic drawings, as well as erotic photographs of bondage acts.
Ray sexually tortured and presumably killed his victims in a $100,000 home-made torture chamber he called his "toy box", that he built out of an old mobile home.

The 'Toy box'

 

 David Parker Ray would play a tape of his demands to his victims who were captured and bound within his 'Toy box' 

Inside the toybox where women were sexually tortured

The tape, labeled "Your Wedding Day," showed Travis tying women up and torturing and raping them. One scene showed him apparently strangling one of his victims to death.

Reynolds was known to the police and health agencies at the age of fourteen for his obsession with violent pornography and snuff movies. His parents had already placed him in the care of a psychiatrist and had taken away his internet, which he had bypassed with his own server.
At the age of seventeen he had already lured a girl to his house in order to strangle, rape and film her in 2008. She fights back and escapes with her life. Reynolds, 17 at the time, was given a final warning over the incident, which the police treated as an assault. Weeks later, images of women he knew with ropes digitally added around their necks were found on his computer by his parents and handed to the police.

Jamie Reynolds

 A doctor then assessed Reynolds as being a significant risk to others on the basis that he seemed to have "progressed from viewing sexually violent pornography to achttp://www.ibtimes.co.uk/georgia-williams-police-sorry-failings-over-violent-porn-obsessed-murderer-making-jamie-1523893ting upon it"

Jamie Reynolds

 By the time he was 22, having amassed 16,800 images and 72 videos of sexual violence, he had progressed to murder.   

In 2013 he lures Georgia Williams to his house. Within the space of half an hour, he hangs her by a rope and rapes her corpse whilst taking images in every room. Reynolds had previously told therapists he found images of strangulation arousing and had experimented with asphyxiation using a plastic bag, a report said. Had Georgia's parents had any inkling of Reynolds' dangerous desires they would never have let their daughter go to his house. But they were completely in the dark.


"Georgia died because the suspect had more rights than the victims."


So, here we are yet again! The agencies involved apologise and states
'Lessons will be learned'

Really?? Will that be after the next victim..Or the one after that..and the one after that... 

Georgia,her sister Scarlett and father Steve

(Trigger warning) This video contains horrific details of a woman's murder and her incredibly distraught family members.

Criminal psychologist- The problem with porn and sex offenders


I have extended this subject matter to a dedicated blog

Self Harming is more rewarding through Pornography and prostitution

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The porn proposition

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Response to a prostitution apologist

I came across this kyle Kulinski video regarding Amnesty's decision to decriminalise sex workers, pimps and brothels.  His analysis of things is often very intelligent and he is passionate about what he is discussing. But this time I feel that he hasn’t done his research.

He backs up his claims from a t.v reality show and says "Go ask the girls at the bunny ranch"

He makes two main arguments -

One is a strawman, saying that everybody who is against legalising prostitution is old fashioned and puritanical. That sex is wrong and paying for sex is just immoral on the face of it. Also that we are calling everybody who says that they are happy in prostitution liars.

The second is a composition fallacy. Saying that prostitution is always better when it is legal. He makes the comparison between alcohol prohibition, and how making it illegal made the situation worse. And assumes that the case is the same with prostitution.

The reason we are against it, is because we can see that even in cases where prostitution is legal, there is still exploitation.

Here is an example of a mega brothel in Germany, where prostitution is legal. It was recently raided by police under suspicion of human trafficking, forced prostitution and fraud.

'Josie, who’s 23 and has spent four years in the sex trade, reckons she has slept with 15,000 men. The key item in her make-up bag is a tube of Xylocaine, a local anaesthetic gel that numbs the inevitable physical pain that results from sleeping with up to 20 men a day.'

http://www.radiotimes.com/news/2015-01-29/mega-brothel-inside-a-german-sex-palace

Germany admits it made a terrible mistake...

Ildiko from Hungary is a victim of brutal and unscrupulous human trafficking. Lured to Germany under false pretences, she ended up in a brothel

A report on the legal sex industry in Nevada, showing how it really works in a legal brothel.

"Legalising this industry does not result in the closing down of illegal sex establishments," says Farley, "it merely gives them further permission to exist."

 A 2-year research study of Nevada legal and illegal prostitution and sex trafficking reveals human rights violations against women in the Nevada legal brothels.

http://www.theguardian.com/world/2007/sep/07/usa.gender

 NEVADA DECLARED MOST "DANGEROUS AND LETHAL STATE FOR THE SEX INDUSTRY" BY SEX WORKERS ANONYMOUS

"Never buy the line that nobody under 18 works in (Nevada brothels)," he said. "It's happening."

  He began promising these girls the moon when they were just 16 years old but they learned real quick once they got to the Bunny Ranch, they weren’t going to be any celebrity. Instead, they had to sexually service Dennis while they called him Daddy FOR NOTHING whenever he wanted.

Dennis Hof

 Pimps Will Be Pimps Whether Male or Female or Posing as “Sex Worker Activists”

Testimonial from an former sex worker.

"What happens in legal brothels is sexual harassment, sexual exploitation and sometimes rape," Farley said. "Despite the claims to the contrary, legal prostitution does not protect women from the violence, verbal abuse, physical injury or diseases such as HIV that occur in illegal prostitution."

http://www.reviewjournal.com/news/outlaw-industry-ex-prostitutes-say

Women have to justify it: they can’t tell themselves or anyone else the reality of it or else they’d die. Until you step out of prostitution, you don’t realize what the emotional wreckage is

The betrayal of a human rights organization

Today, Amnesty International voted for the global decriminalisation of  'Sex work' because 'Sex workers' are marginalised and face constant risk of violence and abuse'. Now I wonder who on earth could possibly exploit, own, sell, rape, violently assault and murder these girls and women?
 It couldn't be the flesh traders and buyers could it, after all they totally love and respect their merchandise and they would never dream of forcing a girl into that kind of 'work' Even though, one of their motto’s is  'Why sell drugs once when you can sell one girl thousands of times'  And what of those who 'choose' this work? Maybe some do- But our concern is the millions who don't. Those who are coerced or forced. Those who are desperately poor. Or those who have unresolved PTSD. As any therapist can tell you, there is a strong link between child & adolescent sexual abuse and long term high risk sexual behaviours. Especially present when the victim is substance addicted.
 I, along with many other advocates and sex trafficking victims are mortified, sickened and angry at a 'Human rights' movement who are normalising and protecting men's rights to buy and use girls/woman's bodies however and  whenever they wish, in order to satisfy their sexual deviancies, power and hatred. Amnesty states that 'Sex workers' will be safer and that it will lessen sex trafficking. Really? None had reported being victims of this violence, which they considered "part of the job". I think they have listened to a lot of pimp talk, because even in countries where it is legal like Germany. Girls and women are suffering from their abusive clients and being trafficked within legal brothels. And are you really that naïve to think that the pimps and brothel owners will treat their 'workers' with dignity and respect. And that they will not provide young girls..When the demand for young girls is escalating beyond measure, in countries whether it's legal,illegal, decriminalised or not. It does not matter to the flesh traders, because they are only interested in PROFITS. Ask yourselves this- Who else would profit, if 'sex work' was decriminalised.

Amnesty denies and dismisses survivors, treating them like defects that don't deserve a voice..

In  Decriminalised New Zealand in 2013..
Former prostitutes and their advocates are calling for clients of sex workers to be prosecuted, saying the decriminalisation of the industry has failed them

 Full pdf of petition and more reading here-

Sexual slavery, forced drug-taking in Decriminalised NSW brothels on the rise

 
Pimps force under-age girls to work in Nevada brothels, Oregon police say

"What happens in legal brothels is sexual harassment, sexual exploitation and sometimes rape,

Nevada declared most dangerous and lethal state for the sex industry

 Romania's disappearing girls

sexual exploitation and prostitution

 Many came from dysfunctional homes, had few friends or family members who cared about them, and were drug addicts or alcoholics.FBI.

 Pimps prostituting children (one girl by her own father who filmed her) Who often grow up & continue being pimped.

 On average, countries where prostitution is legal experience larger reported human trafficking inflows.

 The purpose of the fiction is to cover up all indications of human trafficking, in which women are brought to Germany and exploited there

  Lured to Germany under false pretences, she ended up in a brothel.

 Consent is not a meaningful concept when a woman acquiesces to prostitution out of fear, despair, and a lack of alternatives.

What Amnesty Did Wrong 

 I feel that they have made this decision from the purses of pimps. Because money talks and the sex industry talks billions of profits, made from the holes of young girls and women who often don't have the choice. For example, Domestic abuse and impoverished parents selling their own daughters. I could cite references for months, maybe years. But I don't have that luxury of time and besides, you don't have to be an expert, a professional, an academic, a feminist or a survivor to understand that mentally healthy girls and women would never sell their flesh to many men a day in order to "pay their bills or have a flexible work schedule", as you stated in your draft. You never once mentioned the mental health, PTSD and serious drug addictions of many of these women. The self sexual denigration and dissociation that occurs in most adolescents who were sexually abused by men. Yes, by all means decriminalise prostituted people and help them to attain health and social care. You need to criminalise the flesh traders who exploit and the buyers who create the demand. But, you won't do that will you Amnesty. You believe that men are entitled to women's bodies and need to fulfil their sexual desires. Why don't you read the language of the buyers and understand, that it's not about sex. It is the same as rape. It's about power, control and hate. Good men don't use women, good men love women.
 Amnesty International​ - You have demonstrated today, that you have ignored and dismissed the countless victims and survivors of sex trafficking. And that you have assigned girls and women a second class status and you have jeopardised millions more vulnerable women and children, who will be at greater risk at the hands of flesh traders and buyers across the globe. Your actions and watching you all celebrate with your glasses of champagne today, have caused myself and many others who were forced by pimps into prostitution. Utter distress, disbelief, anger and emotions that triggered and exacerbated our traumas, beyond words.

Congratulations.

The taking and killing of Logan Marr

The taking and killing of Logan Marr.

Within my daily research about child and adult abuse, I have to remain detached from the subject matter. In order to paint or write about it, for reasons to advocate or educate. But on rare occasions, I can become very emotionally affected by certain cases. Last night, I came across this utterly tragic story about this beautiful little girl. Who had succumbed to the unbelievable stupidity, professional incompetence,selfishness and psychotic behaviour of her mother, Grandmother, child services and her foster mother.

Logan Marr met her death, strapped and bound by duct tape into a high chair in a basement. She died of asphyxiation.

Her foster mother Sally Schofield, who was a case worker for Maine's Department of Human Services. Could not cope with Logan's 'Tantrums' So decided to wrap forty feet of duct tape around Logan's body, head and mouth. Force her into a babies high chair and leave her in the basement of her house, whilst Schofield went back to her kitchen to prepare dinner.

When Schofield went back to the basement to check on Logan. She was already dead. Schofield then phoned the authorities and claimed that Logan must of accidentally caused the high chair to topple, thus banging her head and causing her death.
During the police investigation, they found forty feet of duct tape which contained clumps of Logan's hair. Schofield then changed her story and said that Logan tried to bound herself and then she 'demonstrated' how to do it, by wrapping it around her.

Schofield had two of her own children; Both boys. She said that she had wanted a girl, but could not of guaranteed to conceive one. So she decided to adopt a girl. And even though the DHS discouraged caseworkers from adopting children within their system. Schofield had gotten around it. She was highly respected by her colleagues and the department. Schofield fostered both Logan and her little sister Bailey on the understanding that the girls did not have 'Behaviours'.

Logan Marr had first been taken away from her birth mother Christy Marr because a caseworker had decided that she was too immature and irresponsible to care for a child. And that Christy's mother Kathy Marr had told the DHS that Christy often yelled and handled Logan too roughly. You can read the rest of the story here
The taking of Logan Marr

Logan Marr did unfortunately demonstrate the 'Behaviours' That Schofield did not want. Who was assured by the DHS that she did not have. She wanted a 'Perfect' well behaved little girl.
But Logan Marr's 'Behaviours' were evident when they first took her away from her mom. They were evident the second time they took her away from her mom. And they were evident during the time she was placed with her third foster mother Schofield. They were even more evident when during a supervised Christmas visit, Logan (Instead of unwrapping her presents) told her mom that "Sally had hurt her. That she had wrapped her in a blanket and squeezed her face really hard" But, Christy was not allowed to say anything to Logan about it, for fear of thwarting their supervised visits together.


Schofield finally silenced this emotionally disturbed, little five year old girl once and for all on January 31st 2001. She callously (And most probably routinely used this punishment) Dragged Logan down to the basement, bound her body,head and mouth with duct tape and forced her into a babies high chair. And left her there while she went about her daily routine. All because Logan had an obvious,emotionally disturbed episode. And this most cruel and evil woman was not going to put up with these 'Tantrums'.

I cannot begin to imagine what this little girl went through. All the emotional pain and suffering of being taken away twice from her mother. And for no real risk. And the psychological and physical abuse that was inflicted upon her by this highly respected child case worker. The fact that Logan tried to tell the adults around her what was happening. And no one listening or believing her.
And ultimately, the suffering, pain and torture as she gasped her last breath. All alone in a basement,strapped,bound and squeezed into a tiny high chair. I would imagine...screaming inside her head for her mummy.

The taking of Logan Marr (Documentary)