A child of no consequence.

A child of no consequence.

Yet another rape and death of a child in India.
 

This tiny human being, this little girl, this small daughter..is just one story, plucked out from thousands of similar stories.

This beautiful, innocent girl, died from chronic internal injuries, inflicted by the unbelievable callousness of her rapist.

Human rights were meaningless and non-existent to this poor, defenceless child.

But...If she had been born a child of consequence. If she had been the daughter of a President, a Prime-minister, Royalty, the Elite or even a Celebrity. It would have been a 'Big Deal'.

It would have been a big deal to the mass media, the judiciaries, to society and to the world.

The perpetrator would have been found and brought to justice, swiftly and dealt with severely.

There would have been public outcry and an outpouring of sympathy.

There would maybe, be a change of law. A memorial and maybe a school or children's hospital named after her.

The worlds media would run constant stories, including the arrest and trial of the rapist and murderer. There would be endless internet discussions and documentaries made.

This story would reverberate all around this empathetic planet for many years after.

But...This little girl was not a child of consequence.

Her tiny, damaged body will be buried under the ground and forgotten...just like her story, and the thousands of other stories like hers.

What kind of world do we live in, when only the rapes and deaths of children of consequence are addressed in such worldly regard and the poor and insignificant children are dismissed like yesterdays newspaper.

She was not just one of 'India's daughters' She was one of the Worlds daughters...She was one of my daughters...and she was one of yours. 

This  woman is one of life's real heroes, in my opinion she deserves a nobel prize for helping India's sex-trafficked children. She has seen  first hand..the destruction of childrens raped bodies...please check out her website and help her.

The work of Sunitha Krishnan 

And see her speak here- 

Sunitha TedTalks 

 

The commercialisation of sex crimes

The commercialisation of sex crimes

aka- hard-core / Gonzo pornography

My Thoughts...
Anyone in the world... including children; At the click of a mouse, can actually watch the most sexually violent crimes in the comfort of their own homes, workplace, school or indeed 'on the go'.
In reality, most people would be horrified if they observed say a 'Gang rape' occurring in front of their eyes and would hopefully help the victim by calling the police. And if it were a child who witnessed such a heinous act, would definitely be in need of therapy for PTSD.

Yet...thousands of adults and children are viewing such sexual violence like gang rape, everyday, all over the globe. These crimes have become to many, both accessible and acceptable in this pornified rape culture of ours.
 One of the psychological aspects of this, is that the consumer can view these act's anonymously, giving a sense of legitimacy and the capability of emotional  aversion and detachment.
Adding to this problem is the false belief that the 'actress' is actually enjoying being gang raped. Which are the lies fed to the consumer by the pornographers.
 Being gang raped by numerous  males would be both psychologically and physically incredibly damaging. And as I have said before (please read in my 'sex industry' blog) most of the 'actresses' are either trafficking or self abuse victims.
So, even if some of these actresses are genuinely  'enjoying' being gang raped...that does not account for all those who are forced or coerced into these acts. In other words..you don't really know under what circumstances you are watching.

Therefore, these combined elements, psychologically justifies the acceptable viewing of sexual violence. Whether it be curiosity, sex education, entertainment or self gratification; This fuels the demand for more victims (both within pornography and reality) and increased sexual violence, to satisfy those who's cravings escalate, due to a diminished sexual/emotional responsiveness to over exposure of stimulus. It also becomes a serious addiction that can be incredibly detrimental to their psyche.

Overtime and after excessive exposure, these said acts become so tolerant and acceptable, that they lead to total desensitization. Which in turn, promotes a distorted view of beliefs and attitudes; That women crave and enjoy sexual violence. This is especially significant in many young boy's, who's neurological pathways are not mature enough to form social attitudes, moral behaviour, human complexities and world opinion.
 And added to that is the sexualisation of  many young girls, objectification, sexism and self objectification.  Also, the belief that 'females deserve to be raped because of what society and the judicial system implies, by victim blaming and leniency on the perpetrators. There is also the element of social acceptance and tolerance amongst their peers.

So, it is this and the following generations of immature, misguided and impressionable minds, that should cause most concern.
Already, there is a marked increase of 'child sex crimes' incited by pornography...which includes gang rapes by aged 10- 13 year olds as noted in the media and by police agencies.
There is also a marked increase in 'Entertainment rape' amongst young people, who post and share these crimes as mere entertainment.  I think that the words 'shock value' no longer exists in this so called 'freedom of speech' generation. Where young people view sexual crimes on the internet as humorous and make jokes about such horrendous abuses, such as 'gender based violence' and the 'raping of Babies'.
And my belief is that these crimes committed by children will escalate beyond comprehension in the coming years. So if we don't act now..what will our society become, in terms of moral and virtuous behaviour, serious escalation of sexual violence, physical and psychological harm and safety, sexism and misogyny, increased child sex abuse and immeasurable trafficking victims.
The only thing that I believe in helping to combat these attitudes, beliefs and crimes, is to educate young children, by approved, external agencies within schools.
It seems to me, that this age of the internet is regressing to past barbaric acts of  entertainment and acceptance, such as a 'family day out' at public executions, gladiator slaying's, public viewing of witch burning and feeding religious people to the lions.

The only difference being, is that they don't go and watch public sexual violence collectively. They just click..and share.

Porn actresses

Research on the affect of pornography

The links between pornography and sexual violence

porn and sexual violence

porn increases sexual violence

shocking footage of women abused on porn set

scene from 'hardcore'

Hardcore pornographer

Gonzo pornography

A letter to the man who destroyed my innocence.

 

A letter to the man who destroyed my innocence.

By Suzzan Blac – 1969.

To Don,

Just wanted you to know what has happened to me, since that first day that you came and got me.

This may not mean much to you, you may not even recall those two years that we had together. But this is what it did; and will continue to do to me.

I was sat in the garden playing with a stringed puppet. I was asking her 'if she liked butter' as I moved her face above the buttercups on the lawn, to see the yellow light on her chin.

Suddenly, your giant, seven foot shadow fell on me. I looked up at your smiling face, as you took my hand and said that you had something to show me.

As you led me up the staircase, I thought, that maybe you had a present for me.

But, when we went into the bathroom and you locked the door, I felt that something was very wrong and that I was in trouble.

You led me over to the toilet bowl, and I remember being very confused. Because when you unzipped your trousers, you kept telling me that 'I was such a good girl'.

I didn't know the words for what you did to me and made me do to you. All I thought, was that you were hurting and punishing me. But not in the same way that mother did.

So, just as I took mothers beatings, I took your punishment.

And, although, I did exactly what you wanted; I hated it so much, that I learned how to make the hurt go away, by turning all of the stains and marks on the bathroom wall, into faces.

And if I could do it really well, then it was like; I wasn't with you whilst you did those things.

And, when you punished me in front of mother, she didn't seem to mind, so I thought it was okay, because whenever she hurt me, I didn't know what I had done wrong either.

These punishments of yours lasted about two years, up until mother left you, after you had beaten her badly in front of us.

You may not remember any of this, but I certainly will for the remainder of my life.

I am going to become withdrawn, cynical and mistrusting of everyone. I am going to let others punish me in the way that you did, because I will think that this is how the world is and that I always deserve to be punished because I am always bad. You even told me that it was all my fault because 'I was so pretty'. 

 

Then, when I'm thirteen, I will take drugs and drink a lot of alcohol to escape these punishments, because I can't make faces out of the stains any more now that I'm older and I won't care if I die.

When I am sixteen, I will be abducted into sex trafficking and forced to do pornography and prostitution, because both mother and myself didn't care about anyone taking advantage of me, and I will accept this abduction as my own fault. I will blame myself,  because I was stupid enough to go to London with a complete stranger.

After that, I will become severely depressed, hurt myself and attempt suicide three times.

A Doctor will put me on Valium. I will think, that I myself am mentally disturbed, because I cannot recognise my own abuse. I will live with pain and trauma for the following years.

I will then give birth to a daughter and suffer incredible stress and flashbacks so I will go and seek professional help. This will cause me more stress and trauma due to secondary victimisation by family, friends and social workers.

Years later, I will paint images of your punishments and try to learn about other people like you.

I will find out, that there are millions of you, punishing millions of me, every minute of the day, all over the world. And this in itself will cause me untold distress. As will the fact, that so many of you will not get the punishment that you deserve.

And when I become a grandmother to an innocent baby girl...it will all begin again.

Every move she makes, every word that she speaks, every game that she plays...will remind me of you. You are always next to her.

And one night, when I stay over and sleep next to my daughter. My granddaughter will climb into the bed between us.

I will smile with absolute love and pride. But, it will only lasts a few seconds..because you will climb into the bed with us.

And, although I will try my hardest to get you to leave... you will remain with me until my dying breath.

From Suzzan

aged 8.

The sex industry

  A personal view.


The sex industry, in all it's malignant forms; Abuses and destroys it's victims, to such an extent, that they are no longer human beings.
They are merely fleshed robots, sexual fodder, whore holes, sexual receptacle's, un-dead slaves, who arrived at these God forsaken Hell holes, via multiple reasons and the inevitable consequences of life's tragedies and trauma's.

Many of these women (also males and children) are the victims of sex trafficking, which accounts for the most common form.
Many are lured via the promise of respectable jobs, having themselves or their families threatened. Their passports taken and told that they are in debt to their new owners. Or they are sold or abducted into trafficking, and are controlled by threats, violence and rape.
Then there are the victims of sexual, physical and mental abuse; the prerequisite to prostitution and pornography, who suffer from PTSD. In which there is a continuation of abuse, self loathing, self harm, and a re-inaction of the abuse itself.( Please see my recent post 'A letter to the man who destroyed my innocence'  This is an emotional perspective on PTSD.)
Combined with substance abuse, self worthlessness and de-humanisation and detachment. Which leads to the perpetuating cycle of numbing the pain and trauma of child abuse, with substance abuse and therefore prostituting their bodies in order to buy the substances. And, I stress the word bodies, because that is all they possess. Their minds have long been fragmented, along with their souls.
 Prostitution has always been an oppression of women, as we know 'it's the oldest profession in the world',  enforced by people who viewed their sexual needs as a 'human right' in which Rape was justified and preceded by monetary gain via the sex trade.
 Now, they have gone one step further, by procuring their victims by persuasive and/or threatening coercion and/or forceful measures, in order to obtain the bodies of women and children for no cost or very little. Which means massive profits for the pimps, controllers and pornographers.
There is also evidential correlation between pornography and prostitution and - rape, sexual violence, sex trafficking,sexually motivated homicide, child pornography, abuse and grooming of children...The list goes on.

No one with any decency, morals or virtues, would pimp and sexually exploit a human being.
 That fall's to the sexist, misogynistic and monetary exploitive, sexual deviants, who enjoy the best of both worlds...of making massive profits, whilst enjoying their evil gratifications.

This is simply 'Supply and Demand' for without demand, there would not be this diabolical human suffering of immeasurable and disposable victims.

The statistics of the sex trade

Abuse on a porn set


My hope..is that the world adopts this legislation..to criminalise the clients instead of the prostitutes..and especially that of child prostitutes.

Sweden's 1999 sex trade law

An unedited chapter of my horrific experience in sex trafficking!

EXCLUSIVE!! Please check out an unedited chapter of my horrific time in sex trafficking, posted by my good friend at antipornography.org!

 Also please check out their website whilst you are there, to see the incredible harms of pornography,prostitution,sexual abuse etc..It is a brilliant source of information and education!
Please share/comment to help other victims/survivors...Thank you! :)


You can see my horrendous story here -  

"How many bound and gagged females can you fit in a Figo hatchback?"

Answer- 3 apparently..I wonder if they actually tested it out??

  http://www.slate.com/blogs/xx_factor/2013/03/22/ford_india_should_probably_fire_its_ad_execs_for_depicting_bound_and_gagged.html

This is an Indian advertising campaign for Figo Htchback in order to demonstrate the car's roomy boot. Which was unveiled only a few days after the indian parliment passed a major anti-rape law, incited by the country's shocking sexual violence and murders of females.

This is akin to VW plugging the size of their vehicles car space, by depicting how many Jew's you can fit in the boot; During the holocaust.

I was deeply shocked and angry when I saw this. Don't  these advertising guy's actually realise that they are mocking and contributing to the objectification of females, in a world of unrelenting sexism, rape culture and physical and sexual abuse...And does Ford approve of this.

Update

Ford have apologised...But my guess is that it was a publicity stunt. And my concerns are the poll and the comments on this link from the Toronto sun in a poll.... more people thought the advert was hilarious rather than appalled... and the frivolous comments underneath. Now this is the real concern...

http://www.torontosun.com/2013/03/24/ford-india-apologizes-for-offensive-ads

My Book...

 

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Here are some wonderful 5star reviews

 

 

 

This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (a world renowned painter) (Paperback)

Every so often someone like Suzzan Blac comes along and turns the inside world out. Before I read her book I was familiar with Suzzan's ability to visually channel pain while healing it. What I didn't know, was the full extent of her story until two days ago. If I didn't have work to do or errands to run I would have read the book in one sitting. I found the quality of the author's narrative natural and affectionate. This is important because this book is no easy ride. With a strong comforting voice the author guides the reader through some of the worst human conditions. The book has a very inspirational and positive outcome. It left me with an enduring and personable impression of Suzzan Blac as a real human being. I highly recommend The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac, not only as a reference to an artist's life but also as an effective healing agent for emotional trauma.

 

 

This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac  (a world renowned painter) (Paperback)

I gave this book five stars because of the deep emotions fabricated into the words of the book. Suzzan Blac is a true inspiration to people going through a tough time and starving artists everywhere. Buy this book at once! You will truly be inspired by this wonderful and strong Woman. 

 

 

This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (a world renowned painter) (Paperback)

I stumbled upon Suzzan's artwork on[...] the other day.
I am an artist (a young artist) myself, but surreal works do not always impress me. I saw her piece "Your Suffering Is Real", and then I was amazed by "Madonna and Child". I was instantly intrigued as to why a person would paint something so sad and painful.
I clicked on her page to see if I could find her story, and she happened to have this book out.

I bought it immediately. As a person who saw her artwork first, I was dying to know what happened to her.

This book is amazing in horrific ways. To hear that a person could go through abuse as frequent and long as Suzzan did is incredulous. There were parts I had to read more than once to make sure my eyes were in fact giving me the right information. What made this story so amazing and set apart from others is her recovery and victory over her sad life. To be functioning at all after her abuse is amazing, to me at least, but to go above and beyond that and FIGHT BACK is what makes this story worth reading. It is not a story of how life is suffering and humans are doomed to wallow in sadness. It is a story of how a woman, through things that would make ordinary people kill themselves, was able to recover, enjoy her life, and fight for those who are still suffering the way she did.

As for how the book was written, it is very easy to read. The subject, on the other hand, is not easy to read. I finished this book in less than a day. Her metaphors and descriptions bring you into the mind of an artist who has been injured beyond belief, and the words on the page were beautiful in the most horrific way. Just like her artwork. (Which everyone needs to see).

As an artist and a woman, I 100% suggest that anyone and everyone read this book. It is painful to read, especially to those who have not gone through something similar. It is often a topic the world likes to say "Yes we know, please move on." It is hard to talk about, read about and know about.
But this book needs to be read. Abuse like this happens every day.
And the more people know, the more we can do to put an end to suffering.

 

 his review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (a world renowned painter) (Paperback) suzzan blac is truly an inspiration in all she does. she has overcome obstacles that no human should ever have to face let alone a child. she speaks for all people that you dont have to be a result of your past but rather a blessing and a new beginning and a positive role model for the future. her book is intense and real and i hope everyone reads it because well this is life you cant close your eyes and pretend it doesnt exist. the more you know the more you will be able to prevent these attrocities from occuring. the book was an incredible read and i found it relatable to my own history. she speaks to my soul and im sure to many others who have fealt and carried the burden of guilt and shame when it was not there burden to carry nor their fault. way to go suzzan!!!! by the way go check out her incredible art work and read this bookkkkk!!!!!!! shes amazing people spread the name!! 

 

  review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (a world renowned painter) (Paperback) I have seen suzzans work and I have heard her life stories first hand, I am a massive fan of her beautifully disturbing work as I have always called it,both paintings and literature, I am a carer who has used this material for study and also for self healing of my own, I feel in this day and age there is no other way to discribe the hurt and pain others suffer and we all know visual representive pieces work on all levels, her book and paintings go hand in hand complimenting each other,this is a must read for people who need to feel they are not alone and also for those who are generally curious to what actually happens in the shadows. I recommend this book on several levels it will chill you to the bone but it has light at the end of the tunnel. 

 

 

This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (a world renowned painter) (Paperback)

I have known about Suzzan's art work for quite some time now. I first found her on Myspace and was immediately amazed by her art work, although I didn't know much about her back ground and the reason why she produced the art work she did, I was still very impressed and felt connected with the pain portrayed in her paintings. After reading her Autobiography (The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac) I can now see the full picture and it all makes perfect sense as to what she was trying to tell us in her paintings. Her story is not for the faint of heart, yet should be read by ALL to remind us that this evil she encountered on many occasion throughout her life is not only very real, but can happen to anyone of us. I applaud her for her bravery and honesty in writing this book because through her words and art works she continues to fight against the abuse.

 

 his review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (a world renowned painter) (Paperback) A good friend highly recommended this book and lent me her copy. I, unwittingly, started reading at bedtime. I thought I would just read a few chapters and go to bed. Well, that didn't happen. Try as I might, I couldn't put it down, because I so invested I had to see what happened next. Three hours later, when I finished the book, I was too stunned to sleep. (It was worth the sleep deprivation!) Suzzan's story is thought provoking and an emotional experience that one cannot soon forget. Yet, in the end, it is a powerful one that inspires inner strength, courage and healing. I have since purchased my own copy and will be doing some recommending and lending of my own. Also, if you have the chance to check out the author's artwork, do it. She is amazingly talented! 

 

 

This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (a world renowned painter) (Paperback)

Reading Suzzan's story reminded me that if Dante (were alive), he would have to amend the Inferno to include such cruelty and abuse that Suzzan Blac had to endure as its own level of Hell.
Her inner child's strength and resilience is what I celebrated by the end of the book.
Art therapy is the greatest tool any child (or adult) could utilize to "draw" one out of the internal n external prisons.
I would say it's a difficult read, but not in the traditional sense.
It's difficult because I couldn't step back in time and help this brave child.
I recommend this book to be read to show how one can EMPOWER themselves no matter what life hands them.
Art supports sanity.
Suzzan Blac is proof of how a soul can triumph!

 

 

This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (a world renowned painter) (Paperback)

I had become acquainted with Suzzan's incredible works of art through what she has shared on Facebook, but I knew little of who she was or her tortured past. When I got news that this book was to finally be released, I eagerly bought a copy and awaited its arrival. I had no idea what I was in for

From the very beginning, it reads like almost like a horror novel. Each new atrocity revealed page by page weighed so much on me that I didn't want to believe so much evil could possibly happen to a person, much less a child. But the stark honesty and undeniable soul in the voice of the narrative assures that the victim, our hero and humble narrator of the book, is intensely real and completely human. At times, I hadn't the constitution to keep reading... the accounting of abuse became too much and I shed more than a few tears knowing that not only did this happen to Suzzan, but it IS happening to far too many children the world over.

But just when things become the darkest for her, Suzzan pulls herself up by her bootstraps. There has never been a better example of 'what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger' as she proves herself to be unbelievably strong, and especially so when she is blessed with children of her own; children she showers with love and affection, and protects unfailingly from the evils which she endured.

Suzzan is an impeccable artist. But more than that, she is a survivor, a hero, a lifeboat and beacon of hope for all who have suffered the kinds of abuse that she has. Her art is simply a tool to helping fellow victims and exposing to the world great evils which have for far too long been kept behind closed doors.

'The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac' could not be a more apt and appropriate title for this triumph of a book. 

 

Amazon U.K

This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (Paperback)

 

 

 When I first read "The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac" it only took me a couple of hours. I swallowed it, well aware that it would make me feel sick afterwards. The fact is that it dragged me through several emotions- from bitterness, sadness, weakness and speechlessness to anger, aggression and the desire to change things- and by doing this it seriously gave me hope.
Suzzans story is one of the most disturbing autobiographies I've ever heard of. Yet I refuse calling her a victim. She is a survivor.
She survived child abuse, rape, sex-slavery and countless forms of being humiliated. And she has grown to become a loving mother, caring friend, incredible artist. Her surrealist paintings deal with the things people don't like to speak (or even think) about. In her book, she speaks about those same things.
It is an intense read. I'm grateful and full of respect for people who provide their reader with such an amount of unfiltered, often painful honesty. Despite all the horror that happened to this strong and admirable person, she manages to embrace her pain and transform it into remarkable strength. In her work, this book, her paintings, she raises attention and functions as a beacon- for other survivors and for those, who cope with survivors. We are not alone in this and whenever you feel you could use a bit of support to cope- this is the book you'll want to pick up. I do.

 

 This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (Paperback)

 

 

 I finished this book in about 10 hours which is unheard of for me. I just couldn't put it down. Suzzan's personal journey from the day she was born opens your eyes to the horrors and cruelty that 'human beings' inflict on each other. This amazing lady has overcome some of life's most horrific and tragic blows and today stands as a strong, independent, incredible woman. This book is brilliantly written, it pulls you in so that you feel that you are walking along side her as she describes her life struggles. The world very much needs this book and although it will shock some people, it's time we opened our eyes and stood up to the fact that this is an everyday reality for many, many children, teenagers and even men and women. The longer we accept this subject as taboo, the more it will continue, the worse it will become. Suzzan's story forces this reality out in the open. She is an incredibly brave lady to have told her story, and she did so to help others and to let people out there know that they are not alone. I would recommend to anyone and EVERYONE to buy and read this book, it will make you cry and give you hope.

 

 This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (Paperback)

 

 

 

 I thoroughly enjoyed this book and couldnt put it down. The author has certainly had a traumatic life. I have looked at some of her art work on youtube and I find it nightmarish though after reading this book I can understand why her art is so dark. This book is highly recommended

 

 This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (Paperback)

 

 

I read this book in a few hours, I could not put it down. It can be very difficult to read an autobiography when it is so chilling a story, but this is beautifully written and flows wonderfully. Suzzan is a very talented artist, not only on canvas, and her words paint just as vivid a picture as her paintbrush. Hopefully by reading this, others will be inspired to speak out, and to learn that they are not alone.
I've been a big fan of Suzzan Blac since early adolescence, when she first became known to the internet back in 2007. At the time I was going though my own pains, and horror and dark art served as my escapism - as it did for Suzzan.
When I heard she was releasing an autobiography, I was overjoyed. I expected to be shocked, to be appalled at her life story - I have always believed that art is about deep emotional expression, and dark art was the expression of pain - I was not let down. If anything, I found her book to be more shocking, more horrific than I had expected. And, looking again through her online gallery, I began to recognise the people and events her works represent. That scared me, knowing how real these people were, how personal and directly they are to the artist. This makes it more spin-chilling than a general representation of an already grotesque area of society.

 I have seen suzzans work and I have heard her life stories first hand, I am a massive fan of her beautifully disturbing work as I have always called it,both paintings and literature, I am a carer who has used this material for study and also for self healing of my own, I feel in this day and age there is no other way to discribe the hurt and pain others suffer and we all know visual representive pieces work on all levels, her book and paintings go hand in hand complimenting each other,this is a must read for people who need to feel they are not alone and also for those who are generally curious to what actually happens in the shadows. I remmond this book on several levels it will chill you to the bone but it has light at the end of the tunnel.

 This review is from: The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac (Paperback)

 The Rebirth of Suzzan Blac is a disturbing, intense but ultimately inspirational story of remarkable human endurance against truly inhuman abuse. This book has the power to revolt and amaze in equal measure and i did find certain passages surprisingly moving. A sad indictment of how fellow man (and woman) can treat each other, even in their own family, and how, despite the odds, you can emerge from the other side with your dignity. If i have one small criticism, its the the lack of a picture section to view the authors paintings which i feel would have added an extra dimension, but the front cover gives you a taste and it doesn't detract anything from the power of the story. If you only buy one book this year, buy this one, you won't regret it